Why a blog?

Ok, so now you know a little about my life and goals I'm going to tell you why I'm really writing the blog.

As I have already said, I like to express myself through writing - be it poetry or stories - and this is another way for me to share my thoughts with the world.
I'm not the most confident person in the world and I have only just admitted to myself that writing is what I really want to do: my family don't have a clue and they think I'm off to study at university and become a scientist and acedemic - but maybe I can still do both! None of my friends or family will know about this blog until I am ready to tell them.
I hate missing out on opportunities and like to have my fingers in as many pies as possible without being too greedy. This is one of the reasons I wouldn't admit to wanting to write, as I believed I would have to give up on so many things and miss my chance to go to university just to follow this dream - who knows, it could still happen! - but I've decided I have to be true to myself and give it a go.
My other problem is I hate to disappoint people. It feels to me as if everyone expects me to go off to university and focus on my studies, rather than throw it all away on a creative whim, and this is the real reason I haven't told anyone about my writing yet. I'm afraid that they'll be disappointed and say they expected more of me than this, that I shouldn't risk everything for what might not come true.
I'm probably just being paranoid or worrying to much and they'll support me just the same as before, but the fear is still there.

I hope that realising, myself, what I want will help me carry on and maybe sharing a little on the interweb will give me a bit more confidence to be more open in my everyday life.

Hope I haven't bored you all with my sob-story.
See you
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